Why most holiday resolutions fail and how you can stop disappointing (and start respecting and honouring) yourself.

The holidays are almost upon us, and that means people are about to start making resolutions, trying to carry them out, failing to stick to them, and then hating themselves for it.

It seems like our whole culture is obsessed with either:

  1. Self-improvement (i.e. “I’ll make myself happy by becoming the perfect person!”)
  2. Self-destruction (i.e. “I drink/binge/cry because I realize I’m not a perfect person.”)

For most people, these two are deeply related and the good news is—they don’t have to be. There’s nothing wrong with self-improvement! In fact, lifelong personal growth is absolutely necessary for our survival. Without it, we become bored and, when bored, we’re apt to do all sorts of dangerous things like gossiping and eating cake.

Personal growth is the process of building upon yourself to become more talented, more skillful, more fulfilled, etc. It’s when personal development becomes a journey of self-acceptance that we get into trouble.

When our goals become milestones for self-respect—that is when our self-improvement efforts become dangerous.

Our self-sabotaging behaviours thrive inside of that self-hating vacuum where we wait to be good enough for ourselves.

Let me illustrate the difference with two hypothetical women:

 

Sandra: Self-hating and Suffering

She knows she has a few extra pounds on her. In fact, she’s hyper-aware of it. Every day, Sandra looks at herself in the mirror and takes a mental inventory of flaw, feeling increasingly more horrible each time. What if, she thinks, my husband leaves me for a thinner woman? What if I always feel this way looking at myself? What if I die looking like this?

New Year’s time comes and, as a resolution, Sandra decides to join a gym and go on a diet. She thinks about calories every hour of the day and drags herself to exercise after work. Each time she returns home from the gym, she checks the mirror again. “Nope,” she thinks, “Not good enough yet.” And on she goes. Over the coming weeks, Sandra loses some weight, while also losing some of her sanity. She feels better about herself on some days, but hates herself again on others.

She begins to feel compulsions to eat foods that she knows aren’t allowed on her diet. She can’t help but fall into those compulsions. It’s like she’s being tempted by the devil. She finds herself eating cake and then finds herself hating herself for eating cake.

As time goes on, Sandra feels more and more like there’s something wrong with her, something inherently flawed that keeps her from the body she wants. In the interim, her husband feels ignored and unloved as she obsesses about herself. He distances away from her. She thinks he’s distant because of her weight. Sandra’s life continues to struggle between forced self-improvement and blind self-destruction.

 

Tina: Self-accepting and Thriving

Tina knows she has a few extra pounds on her. Lately, she’s been slacking on eating well and exercising. When she thinks about this, she knows that it’s been hectic lately in her house with all of her commitments. She knows that, when she gets overloaded, she tends to neglect her health.

Tina decides to declutter her life. She knows that she will be compelled to be good to herself if she clears some space around her. Tina trusts that her natural state is to be kind to her body and, if she’s not being kind to her body, that’s a signal that something else is wrong.

Tina re-arranges some of her work priorities, asks her husband for help, and reaches out to her friends. She joins a Pilates studio, because that’s a kind of exercise she enjoys, and searches around for healthier recipes for foods that she loves. She doesn’t push anything away from herself and she doesn’t force herself to do anything. Every step along the way, she checks in with how she feels about the changes she’s making.

With her new routines, Tina feels more energetic after each Pilates class and each meal. She listens to her body and allows herself to skip classes when she’s not feeling great and she’ll eat cake if she finds herself craving it because, after all, you only live once.

After a while, Tina finds that she isn’t craving cake anymore. In her new healthy body and her new healthy mind, she craves water, inspiration, and connecting with people. Tina lives a life of self-respect and self-acceptance that naturally allows for gradual and persistent self-improvement.

 

Which of the two are you?

From dancing both of those tangos, I know that there is only one, simple difference between those states and that is: trust. If I trust that, in my natural state, I am already compelled to be healthy and good to myself, then I’ll just accept myself as I am. I’ll listen to myself and give myself what I need.

When I trust myself, self-improvement is just self-discovery.

If I don’t trust that I am naturally healthy and think, instead, that I’m made to be unhealthy and any attempts at health will have to be forced, then of course I’ll feel the need to force it. Then, my body will resist me the whole way. Then, my self-improvement is just self-mutilation. No wonder it so quickly turns to self-destruction—it is the same thing!

As it says in The Love Mindset, “Self-improvement without self-love is like building a house upon sand without a solid foundation. You can build and build, but it will always sink.”

Remember this when you’re setting your resolutions this year and remember this when you’re feeling guilty about taking that extra piece of cake. It’s not about the cake. It’s about why you want the cake and that’s always an issue of re-arranging your environment to better support your inner needs for comfort. Until you allow your inner comfort to thrive, you’ll keep searching for it on the outside.

Seek to accept yourself more, instead of seeking to improve yourself. Then, improvement will come naturally, automatically, and consistently.

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How will you honour yourself this year and seek to make changes in a healthy way?

The Dangers of Self-Improvement: Why Most New Year’s Resolutions Don’t Work


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  • December 21, 2013 at 5:08 pm
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    Love your flip chart!

    “self-improvement is just self-discovery” is so true. I frequently write ‘dis covery’ (space included) to emphasize the process we are in one of revealing already exists. Becoming more of our true selves is truly a wonderful journey and the best reason “to eat cake”.

    Lorraine

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    • December 22, 2013 at 2:36 pm
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      Dis cover – I love that! Perhaps the most beautiful changes happen when we just allow, trust ourselves, and get out of our own ways! Thank you, Lorraine.

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  • December 21, 2013 at 11:51 pm
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    Great post, Vironika! After being Sandra for WAY too many cycles of my life (and ending up with injury after injury from compulsive exercising and disordered eating patterns), I finally started working with a mindfulness-based nutritional counsellor towards the end of this year.

    It’s a gradual process, but I’m starting to feel so much better about myself – whatever size I end up being!

    Blessings

    TANJA (PS – here from Authentic Connecting!)

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    • December 22, 2013 at 2:37 pm
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      I hear you, Tanja. I was Sandra in every aspect of my life! I found that there was just no way to fulfill my expectations for myself, because anytime I met them, they’d rise. No wonder I had a breakdown. And thank goodness. Now I can be free! And so can you. Lovely to see you here, Tanja 🙂

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  • December 22, 2013 at 9:42 am
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    This is so true. Even if we have the best intentions for positive change we need to understand why the problems are there in the first place. By dealing with the root emotional causes first everything seems to flow so much easier into place. Weight comes off easier, relationships line up better and we just FEEL so much lighter with less resistance. Accepting ourselves as we are is a great way to start the new year! That should be first on our list of New Years resolutions! Thanks for this beautiful post!

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    • December 22, 2013 at 2:34 pm
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      “Accepting ourselves as we are is a great way to start the new year! That should be first on our list of New Years resolutions!” – What a perfect summary. A gift I hope we’ll all take advantage of! Thank you, Melissa 🙂

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  • December 22, 2013 at 1:12 pm
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    Excellently put Vironika.. we can even make self growth into something negative with our human egos, if we do so in unawareness of the why’s .. really insightful, thank you 🙂

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    • December 27, 2013 at 2:14 am
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      You are so welcome, Caroline. As you’re hinting at, self-awareness is the answer at the end of the day 🙂

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  • December 22, 2013 at 3:18 pm
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    “Seek to accept yourself more, instead of seeking to improve yourself.” I LOVE this!! Great post. Thanks for sharing!

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    • January 19, 2014 at 2:14 am
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      You are so welcome Rhoda! Thank you for reading and allowing this into your mind and heart.

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  • December 23, 2013 at 4:12 am
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    Love this Vironika, “Self-improvement without self-love is like building a house upon sand without a solid foundation. You can build and build, but it will always sink.”
    We should always seek to do what we feel is right, not what others tell us is ‘the way’ if you don’t like the gym don’t go to the gym! Find another way to exercise which is right for your body.
    Really great post!

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    • December 23, 2013 at 12:48 pm
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      Exactly, Sam! If I had to go to the gym, I’d be miserable. I love yoga and working out alone. If I thought the gym was the only way, I’d have given up working out a long, long time ago.

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  • December 25, 2013 at 11:22 am
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    Very thoughtful, inspiring message, my friend. Self-love and acceptance is the key to being comfortable in one’s skin, at peace. I’ve learned to forgive myself when I allow my mind to tell me what should be or should have been and to re-frame those thoughts to speak more lovingly to myself. Thank you for your insights. 🙂

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    • December 26, 2013 at 2:17 pm
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      What you’re saying here is so important, Lori. I’ve found that self-love is like an onion. Once you peel off one layer, there’s another one still waiting. You know to stop judging yourself openly in the mirror, but then you go on to judge yourself for judging yourself. The only sane solution I’ve found is, as you say, to bring on the loving thoughts instead of seeking to rid ourselves of the toxic ones.

      As I’ve said elsewhere – If you are watering a tree with tar, it will not grow. And yet, to stop the flow of tar will not necessitate the flow of water. We must not only stop harming ourselves. We must learn to nourish ourselves.

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  • December 27, 2013 at 3:03 am
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    Brilliant article, great teaching… Love it!

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  • December 29, 2013 at 10:32 am
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    Hi Vironika,

    I love this line, “self-improvement is just self-discovery.”

    We should forget about goals and look term plans. Focus on self-discovery in every moment is a great way to get out of the sad story of me. Amazing things happen when the story goes away.

    Be well,
    Sam

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    • January 2, 2014 at 2:19 am
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      “Get out of the sad story of me” – love that Sam. Yes, we can make for a very different fable when we set off on the journey of a lifetime 🙂

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  • December 30, 2013 at 8:45 pm
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    Thank you Vironika for being ‘real’. Lets face it, we have all had New Years Resolutions like that. Its nice when someone comes along and gently reminds us that we can jump off of that merry-go-round now. Thank you for being ‘that person’. Lets not have another new year where we set ourselves up to feel worse. Self-discovery is a win win so I will take a double on that one! <3

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    • December 30, 2013 at 11:38 pm
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      Let’s, my friend, let’s. Isn’t it wonderful to have the opportunity to not make the same mistakes again and again? Isn’t it even more wonderful to actually take it?

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  • March 1, 2014 at 6:22 pm
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    I love this quote, “Self-improvement without self-love is like building a house upon sand without a solid foundation. You can build and build, but it will always sink.”

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    • March 11, 2014 at 2:21 am
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      Glad you love that, Stephanie! I know you’re learning this in your incredible work to help and inspire people.

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