Shortly after I had a mental breakdown, I fell out of touch with the person I thought I was. With my party girl clothes safely piled in the closet, listening to my roommates getting ready for yet another night out, I would grab a jar of Nutella and dig deep into the TED website.
It was not as romantic as it sounds.
I had quit smoking simultaneously as I quit throwing up my food. Replacing with chocolate spread was doing nothing for my awful energy levels and poor body image. Also, while I hid in my bedroom this way, sometimes people would come to my door with a joint or a flask, kindly offering me the very things whose tentacles I had just removed from my throat.
I would just strap on headphones and watch more TED talks.
Looking back, I probably should have just eaten some carrot sticks, made a plan to move out, and watched the TED talks in the library. It didn’t have to be as uncomfortable as it was. But that was my story—my months in a cocoon of self-discovery.
If you are stuck in your own healing cocoon, and you need some encouraging voices, I hope you’ll find these talks helpful. I sure did.